Not so fast....

Well...I guess my body didn't want that video montage of a comeback...not less tan 48 hours after I posted that last entry, my hip started aching again.  Insert appropriate curse word here, I liked MOTHERF@&$ER!

So...once I stopped eating cupcakes, cause that's what you do when things don't go right, eat cupcakes...I tried something new...

Yes, those are bunny butts and they were yummy.

So...onward.  My friends had told me to try something called Active Release Therapy.  Luckily I have a friend who had a doctor to refer me to and I started getting the therapy.  I googled how it helped with hip pain and it seemed promising: seemed.  Did it work?  Kinda.  On top of the bursitis, my hip is a hot mess of tangled muscle fibers and for that part, yes, it certainly worked.  We then started throwing other therapy at it such as Graston and ultrasound, but I believe we reached a point of disminishing returns and "empty wallet syndrome".  So...I stopped.  I cried more.  It became less about being able to run and more about 5 months of daily pain in sitting and walking.  Frustration level: off the charts.

Then, I got angry.  Angry and pissed at everything.  I despised reading people post about training, races, hell anything positive.  Even my close knit friends were getting to me.  I shut down, I went off the grid, I processed.  Then I said it out loud.  "I don't think i will ever run again".  "What if THEY were right?  Maybe they are right.  No...no...no...maybe?"

I had a very emotional shower, bawling my eyes out and just coming to terms with that.  I said it a few times more and just remained sad for several days.  

Then the weirdest thing happened.  The pain got less.  This whole time I had still been religiously icing my hip multiple time a day.  The pain got smaller.  More tolerable and I thought, could the bursa sac FINALLY be shrinking?  This past Monday, April 14th, I don't know what made me do it, but I took an Aleve and went upon my work day.  As the day progressed, the irritation was less noticeable.  I also kidded around with my friends and decided that if this a-hole was going to be in my life, I would give it a name, so I named my bursa sac Claude.

Tuesday, April 15:  I woke up to work out and the oddest thing...no sign of irritation or pain.  I thought, "huh".  It happened to be leg day and I did my whole workout and still nothing, "huh"...I got to the mats to do my rehab exercises and I thought, " for sure I will feel it cause I always feel it", nothing.  "What.the.fuck."  I quickly texted my friend Professor Badass at 5:30 am, cause that's what friends do lol, and said, "no sign of Claude." And then I shed a few tears. Proceed with caution.

Several days passed, no sign, happy me.  The weather went to crap later in the week and on Saturday, Claude poked his head back.  I'm not sure if there is a correlation between bursitis and humidity.  Must google.

Maybe I am getting better.  Maybe.  Still, no plans to,lace up until mid May, assuming Claude stays away.  So, until then, I continue the routine...ice, rehab exercises, anti inflammatories, hope.  At least I have cute physical therapy partners:

Momma...can we help?

Until next time...

Queue the video montage...

Hi Everyone!

I know, I know, it's been a while.  I hope everyone is doing well at their goals.  I continue to be inspired by the many Facebook posts from my friends as they continue to crush it.  It also doesn't hurt that this was Olympics month.  How motivating!

Things in my camp have been progressing quite well.  I have been doing well at my 6x a week workouts and now have drafted others into the Early Morning Crew.  That helps knowing they are up and at it somewhere...keep me motivated to get up and get my workout done.  

My current mantra is "quality".   Just focus on quality.  I have been working very hard on strengthening my hips and it's working.  I can now run 45 minutes on a treadmill at a reasonable pace.  I have enough confidence in my recovery that I am signing up for 5ks and a few longer races.  Although I am disappointed I missed the 6 weeks of cool weather due to the injury and now it's back to 78 degree, higher humidity runs...joy.

This injury has humbled me.  It really has.  I never had one that hurt all the time.  Little things like getting in and out if a chair were painful..eye watering painful. But I am ready to put it behind me.  It's also made me mentally tougher and smarter...I am hoping I will no longer ignore pains before they get out of hand. 

So, I'm optimistic and frustrated at the same time, but this picture sums things up in my camp:

And so the official comeback has begun...queue the inspirational music and cliche sport clips...here I come...

2014 goals

Happy new year everyone!  Can I still say that?  It's the 4th, as I draft this, but I think the rule says if it's the first time, I can still wish everyone a happy new year...anyway...

Ready for 2014!

Did we all make it through the holidays?  I did, barely.  Fun times and a lot of continued work on my hip issues.  I saw my doctor again and it'll be another couple of weeks before I can try to run.  I am just starting to do cardio again.  I am going bat-shit crazy not being able to do any cardio.  The weight training is fun, but I need to move.  Patience they say.  Argh.

So, everyone and their brother are posting their goals for 2014...so if you can't beat them join them!  Here's the list of what all my haters will try to talk me out of this year...

Running

650 miles:  I think this is doable.  I ran 455 last year and that was with a lot of forced breaks.  Seeing how I am working on getting back to beast mode in my strength training...think I can achieve this.

Working out

6 days a week.  To get back to beast mode, I can't pussy around with 3-4 days a week.  I've got to train 6 days a week and by train, I mean run, cycle, weight train and stretch.

Push-ups:  so, my running group has this push up challenge going.  While not high on my list, I would like to be able to do 3x15 full push-ups with good form every other day.

Races- big ones

1 Fall half marathon

1 FULL marathon (January 2015)

I do plan to sprinkle in some shorter races, solely to build back my t-shirt collection.

Weight

Ha ha ha!  Well...I would like to lose 15 pounds.  I gained 15 pounds when we upgraded to our new house due to the added financial stress, but that's been resolved and now it's time to ge the weight off.  Enough excuses.

Included in this weight goal is getting back into 4 pairs of jeans that have been collecting dust in my closet.  

Stretch goal: would love to influence at least 1 person in my circle of naysayers to take a positive step in health.  This is probably the hardest of them all!

I am sure there may be some set backs in the road ahead, but I think I have a good plan in place.

With that said, calling it a night!

We've got work to do!